suDdEnly...

omg...suddenly i'm thinking of him...
he...
was one of my best friend before this...

still remember he was sitting beside me when we were From 2...
still remember we always play in class...
still remember he borrowed a poster of "yu gi oh"poster to be my "desktop backgound"(a poster tat cover my desk in my class)...
still remember we played together when Rehat...
still remember he always sick since primary school...
still remember that i always see the medicine in his side=pocket of his bag...
still remember we talk to each other watever we know,we hear, we see...
still remember we r so hardworking together for our every test...
still remember that day...

a bad day...

we...because a backdrop of the sideboard at the back of our class...
we...quarreled...
cant remember why...i wanna know why...
just remember that was about the backdrop...
since that BAD DAY...
cold war~~~

so cold...

we changed place to sit...din say anything...
long long time....

PMR...he studied very hard...finally...he can change to TANAH PUTIH...another secondary school...
then...we din contact after that...

cold~~~

one day in 2007-2008, i back from matrikulasi for holiday...my friend call me to Megamall...shopping...
together wif him...dono y he also come wif us...
he...barehaired...wif a cap...
he...very thin...very very thin...
i hear his voice...slow...so slow...forceless
tat day...
we...still din talk a single word...

cold~~

cant believe...tat day was.........



Last year...2008...
SUDDENLY...
my friend call me...
wif crying sound...

"进业，他。。。他。。。去了。。。"

stunned...spechless...blank...

blank~~~

he...gone...forever...

blood cancer...blood cancer...bring away my best friend...
i din even say a 'sorry' to him!!!

SORRY MY FRIEND!!!even though i din know who's wrong...
but...jus wanna say SORRY!!!

cold war...make me din say anything wif him for almost 4 years...
cold war...make me lose a friend forever...
cold war...make us silent....before...n forever...
cold war...make me hav a scar forever...

Just a single word...''sorry''...i din say to him...
no dare...even at that day at Megamall...also no dare to say it...
just a single, simple word...also no dare to say...
i din say to him...n...cant say in front of him...forever...

sorry my friend...
i promise..i wont make any cold war wif my friends...
i wont keep "sorry" in my heart...i will speak it out to my friendsss...
i don wanna lose another friend like u in my life...
i promise...

To my friendsss...珍惜眼前人...a 老套 phrase...but...its true...don lose anyone jus because of some small quarrels...like me...

Dear my friend...FRIEND FOEVER!!!SORRY if i hurted u before...really sorry!!!
hope u happy in heaven...

Farewell~~~